i dunno you tell me, and please tell me soon. you spend every second of your life telling me how they piss you off and how you wish theyd never joined us, or how you dont want to see them ever again, yet you blow me off to be with them 3 days in a row and not see me at all in between.
i feel like im competing to be friends with you because you know we dont get on but you choose betweenn us when you want us, and is that fair? no! i never get to see you when i want because your already with them!
well yesterday i was talking to you and you always replied instantly, but the second i asked you to do something this saturday, you took 13 minutes to reply and then said ‘i cant ive just been told not to make plans on saturday’ BY THEM! who the fuck do you think you are pushing me around. and the worst part is i cant even tell you any of this because you cant keep a fucking secret and youll just tell her and everyone then ill be left with nobody but what does that matter because it already feels like i have nobody.
youalways tel me youll spend forever making it up to me hwo you treated me last summer … but when?! you spent that whole summer making me feel like a peice of shit and now you’re doing it because its easter holidays … do you know how that makes me feel? you tell me im your best friend and i mean the world etc but as soon as it comes to the holidays you COMPLETELY blank me and leave me wondering what ive done wrong
i swear to god if this summer ends up even a fraction as bad as last summer i will hang myself form the nearest bridge with rocks tied to my feet becuase life isnt a life worth living if you feel like you’re worthless to everyone else.
the only good thing that comes out of this is when i have the chance to start a new life, i wont regret leaving you behind because you really arent worth all the shit you put me through just to keep yourself happy